By Renée
poems,
paintings,
petals,
sealed with a kiss.
you slowly drifted into me,
but once I was sure,
I crashed into a soft ocean,
where all I could think of was you.
Awakening Editor: Katelin Slosky
The Bird is the Word: Sophisticated Schoolyard Shenanigans
By Renée
poems,
paintings,
petals,
sealed with a kiss.
you slowly drifted into me,
but once I was sure,
I crashed into a soft ocean,
where all I could think of was you.
Awakening Editor: Katelin Slosky
By Renée
how lovely it must be to walk with your soft hand in mine,
down an old beaten path,
where the only sounds we can hear are the songs of birds,
and our own laughter.
imagine,
to sit under an old tree together,
watching the world pass by us.
there might be an ocean,
or a stretch of boundless land,
keeping us apart my darling,
but never will you be far from my mind.
Happiness Editor: Chelsea Xu
By Renée Vazquez
noun,
the last day of the world’s existence,
a time or event of crisis or great danger.
so many people thought up great stories of doomsday,
terrifying monsters,
intrepid survivors,
extraordinary natural disasters.
none of them believed that a deadly disease from the same family as the flu
could bring the world to its knees.
All we have to do is stay at home.
Meanwhile fires raged,
caused by us.
Meanwhile storms brewed,
caused by us.
Meanwhile corruption festered,
caused by us.
One might expect any one of these to be the cause of doomsday–
difficult to fight,
a reflection of our own effects on the world–
it might’ve been more poetic.
But all we have to do is stay home.
Then again,
even that may just prove too much of an indignity to some people.
Doomsday Editor: Doreen Yuan
Co-written by Renée and Chelsea
Is morality strictly a code of conduct, or ¨standards by which one decides what’s right and wrong,¨ as one of our anonymous sources put it? This is what we tasked our student populace to decide. . . . Is morality always rational? How does one determine what’s right or wrong? How does one know what’s good or bad? Nature does not seem to bother itself with these questions, but we humans do. Morality isn’t clear cut in our world. There are layers and layers of circumstance to try and factor in. How do we choose between beliefs when we are stuck between two…? Most of us would agree that something such as killing is wrong. But, what is the “right” decision, if there even is a right decision? To test your morality, we presented a paraphrased version of the famous “Trolley Problem” and other moral quandaries.
Survey Questions:
*What is morality (to you)?
*There is a runaway unmanned trolley barreling down the railway tracks. Ahead on the tracks, there are five people tied up and unable to move. The trolley is headed straight for them. You are standing some distance off in the train yard, next to a lever. If you pull this lever, the trolley will switch to a different set of tracks. However, you notice that there is one person tied down on the sidetrack. You have two options: Do nothing and allow the trolley to kill the five people on the main track. Pull the lever, diverting the trolley onto the side track where it will kill one person. What is the right thing to do?
*As before, an unmanned trolley is hurtling down a track towards five people. You are on a bridge under which it will pass, and you can stop it by pushing a very fat man next to you onto the track, killing him to save five. What do you do?
*As before, a trolley is hurtling down a track towards five people. You can divert its path by colliding another trolley into it, but if you do, both will be derailed and go down a hill, and into a home where there is at least one person living there. Anyone in the home would die. What do you do?
*As before, a trolley is hurtling down a track towards five people. This time you are on it. You can divert its path, but if you do, you would be killed. What do you do?
*You’re a gifted transplant surgeon who has five patients, each in need of a different organ who will die without that organ. Unfortunately, there are no organs available to perform any of these five transplant operations. A healthy young vagabond, passing through the city, comes in for a routine checkup. In the course of doing the checkup, you discover that his organs are compatible with all five of your dying patients. If the young man were to disappear, no one would suspect you and he has no family left. Do you kill that tourist and provide his healthy organs to those five dying people and save their lives?
Aurora: Morality is someone’s personal beliefs. It depends on the person. Survey responses– pull the lever, no push, save the house, save self, no sacrifice patient.
Conner: I don’t know! — no pull, yes push, save the house, kill self, no sacrifice patient.
Leslie: I don’t know. — yes pull, yes push, yes wipe out the house, kill self, no sacrifice patient.
Leo: Morality involves the values that I hold subjectively (my value system). — no pull, no push, kill self, save the house, sacrifice the patient.
Anonymous: Morality is making an active choice between right and wrong. — yes pull, yes push, yes sacrifice the house, no don’t sacrifice the vagabond patient.
Josh: Morality is knowing right from wrong. — no pull no push, no don’t wipe out the house and occupants, kill self, no don’t sacrifice vagabond.
Sofia: I don’t know how to define morality. — yes pull, yes push, yes sacrifice house occupants? kill self, sacrifice vagabond (if there are no transplant patients if not, then no).
Dominic: Morality is having morals and would be the extent to which one knows right and wrong. — yes pull, yes push, no don’t sacrifice house occupants, no-kill self, sacrifice vagabond.
Anonymous: I don’t know about morality. — yes pull, no push, no don’t sacrifice house occupants, kill self, sacrifice the vagabond. There are too many factors and in real life, I don’t know. There is no “right answer.”
Nathan: Morality is the idea of doing “good” things based on your own code. — yes pull, no push, yes sacrifice the house occupants, kill self, no don’t sacrifice the vagabond.
Anonymous: Morality is the standards by which one decides what’s right and wrong. — pull the lever, no push, don’t sacrifice the house occupants, kill self, no don’t sacrifice the vagabond.
The “moral” of the story is . . . relative . . . .
Morality Editor: Luke Langlois
A poem. For humanity.
By Renée
I know my emotions.
I know that you’re not sure about yours.
I know that words for you don’t mean the same thing as they do to me.
But they’re all that I’ve had for a long time.
I can’t let you go.
You give me hope for a future that used to seem bleak.
You make me want to scream at the world how amazing you are.
You make me want to be a better person.
You make me want to never let you go.
You are the one who I want to go through the bad times with.
Just let me tell you what I know.
Just let me enjoy you.
And even though I would like to hold you forever,
I’ll let you go when you want me to.
Humanity Editor: Doreen Yuan
A tribute to my parents, who have loved me and put up with my b.s. for 17 years, and who stayed with me through all of my 11 major surgeries (and counting).
By Renée, for “Love” theme
October, patient is a 12-year-old female with congenital hereditary progressive arthro-ophthalmodystrophy.
Twist. Darkness.
Acute scoliosis, emergency spinal fusion required with possible allograft.
Slip. Fear.
December, returning patient is a 15-year-old female.
Drip. Blood.
Acute lumbar spondylolisthesis, and lower lumbar spondylodesis, emergency procedure required.
Tinge. Fear.
January, patient is a 16-year-old female–
Crack.
June, patient is a 16-year-old female, high-risk–
Crack.
August, patient is a 16-year-old female, high-risk for–
Crack.
November, patient is a 16-year-old female, high-risk for infection–
Crack.
Spinal fusion revision with possible bone grafting.
Ouch.
Love Editor: Quintus
By Renée, for “Dream” theme
a monster crawls out of a closet.
a monster crawls out from under the bed.
the door, the shadow, the walls.
a child can feel the death lurking.
she stays as still as she can.
the sky from outside gets lighter.
she collapses finally into sleep.
When I was little I didn’t believe in monsters or ghosts until bedtime came. I would lie in my bed and fall asleep, but sometime during the night, I would wake up and anything could happen. Monsters, ethereal pitch-black shadows with skeletal hands, haunted me.
a feeling of falling.
way too real of a feeling.
her legs are unsupported,
air rushes past,
her lungs gasping for breath.
people she loves look on.
they let her fall.
she stays silent.
not asking them for help.
instead, she weeps.
Then during my middle-school years, my monsters became less shadowy. They stopped waiting for me to wake up and infiltrated my deepest fears. They knocked me over and tested me. And I failed.
the monster.
it creeps up.
not as slow as one would like.
she doesn’t fight it tonight.
not tonight.
it confirms her deepest fears.
it embraces her, swallowing her into the darkness,
she emerges only in the morning.
As I got older the monsters didn’t come as often, but when they did, they came with a vengeance. I fought hard some days, others… not so much. Between the medication and worry, some nights I just lay there, yearning for rest, but it waited for me. So I just let it consume me.
a black hole.
darkness, as vast but as absolute as the ones from childhood.
this time it had grown.
it threatened her but,
it wanted everything.
it was the end.
Dreamer Editor: Doreen Yuan
By Renée
When James came around and asked for posts about our favorite types of music and musical artists, I immediately thought of dozens of genres, bands, musicians. So, then I thought, instead of gushing incoherently about my multifarious music tastes, why not expose the taste of my classmates?? BRILLIANT. So, I sent out this survey to complete my nefarious plan, and this is what you guys’ responses were.
Question: What types of music do you enjoy the most?
Question: Do you have a favorite musical group, if so who?
Steely Dan
Rainbow Kitten Surprise
Dan & Shay
Guns N’ Roses
Simple Plan
Jonas Brothers
Maroon 5
Queen
Kami-sama, I have noticed
Coldplay
Led Zeppelin
Beatles
The Neighbourhood
Imagine Dragons
The Police
The Score
Milk and Coffee
The Wallows
The Killers
Santa Cruz
The Clash
The Hush Sound
The Regrettes
Miles Davis Quintet
No, I don’t have one (3 responses)
Question: Do you have a favorite individual musical artist, if so who?Avicii
Michael Bublé (x2)
Boz Scaggs
Matt Maeson
Ariana Grande (x2)
YK Osiris
Kehlani
Jake Sonderman
Jay Chou
Post Malone
Ryan Tedder
Robert Plant
Two Feet
Michael Jackson
Marina
Koji Kondo
Girl in red
Her
Eden
Tristam
Melody Gardot
No, I don’t have one (2 responses)
Favorite Musician Editor: James Zheng
By Renee
What is there to say about Halloween….. A time of panicked last minute costumes, consuming copious amounts of sweets, and decorating homes with cheesy props. I love Halloween. I love dressing up and beaming with pride over how good my costume came out. I love tricking myself into believing that treats are not bad because they’re small. I love feeling giddy, waiting in suspense as I watch horror movies. I love Halloween. But, while I’m working on my costume, baking something spooky, or carving pumpkins, I have to listen to some music to get myself into the Halloween spirit! So I thought that y’all might enjoy a good ol’ Halloween playlist for tonight.
1. “31 Days of Halloween” by Nancy Nightmare and the Wizard.
2. “I Put A Spell On You” by Nina Simone
3. “Land of the Dead” by Voltaire
4. “Somebody’s Watching Me” by Rockwell
5. “Burn the Witch” by Queens of the Stonewell
6. “Thriller” by Michel Jackson
7. “Season of the Witch” cover by Lana Del Rey
8. “She Put a Hex on You” by Them
9. “The Maddest Story Ever Told” by Fantomas
10. “The Night” by Voltaire
Seasonal Holiday Editor: Katelin Slosky
By Renée
When Editor Doreen said, WRITE ABOUT SOMETHING FAR AWAY, Renée responded with a favorite recipe that reminds her, fondly, of familiar but far-away places.
This is a Mexican recipe that blends two parts of my culture that I have grown up with: Spanish and Mexican. A good way to describe it is mestizo. It includes flavors that were popular in Mexico (e.g. chocolate) along with the notoriously Mexican absence of baking.
You can melt the chocolate in the microwave, but the traditional method is in the bain-marie. A bain-marie is a warm water bath, where you put the pot in which you are cooking inside a larger pot filled with water.
Far-Away Editor: Doreen Yuan